Music is happiness












Everyone loves music, right? Well for me my love and appreciation for it hit new levels when I was able to listen to music again after several years of not being able to. You couldn't listen to music? You might be asking. Well the answer is no, I couldn't. Two years ago it was so painful for me to listen to music, and as you can probably imagine it was a pretty dismal situation to be in! Music is probably one of the only things in the world that has the power to bring total strangers together, and for many, music was their first love, to quote the famous John Miles song. 

One of the symptoms of M.E - the illness I suffer from - is sensory overload which basically means it can be incredibly painful to be touched, to see lights, or to hear things. There are different levels of extremity but I suffered with it severely, so much so that I had to avoid loud places and yep, you guessed it, I had to avoid music. *Sad crying emoji goes here*



When the severity of my sensory overload started to ease off a bit I was completely ecstatic! If I had the energy to dance I definitely would've done! I could listen to almost a whole entire album again and it felt so so good! My taste in music maybe isn't the most friendly on the ears, but we can't help what we like! I'm really into a lot of alternative stuff, punk, rock, even heavy metal so I might not be able to listen to some of my favourite artists and bands just yet, but I'm not complaining. For now I'm more than happy to listen to the likes of Soko, Laura Marling and Angus & Julia Stone, and I look forward to the day that X ray spex can be blasted down my ears once again.



What would you do if you were unable to listen to music for several years?
What sort of music are you into?


Peace & love!

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  1. It must have been horrible for you Hayley-Eszti! I couldn't imagine a life without music!

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    1. It was! I appreciate it 10x more than I did before now!

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  2. I bet it was great being able to listen to music again! What was the first thing you put on? I love Kate Bush!

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    1. It was! I listened to Queen with my Dad!

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  3. Music has always been my preference for soothing my angst. I have been avoiding it in my dire circumstances right now (hubs had a heart attack weeks ago, and is slowly working to recover). I live day by day and others have been trying to help, but I have not been able to listen to music for the intervening time as that was one of the things we enjoyed together.

    After reading your post I realized music and writing are the two things that I've not been able to do in the midst of the shock to my world. Thanks Hayley, for reminding me that music should never take for granted. I will try it soon. I like your photos, too.

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    1. I am so sorry to hear about your husband, sending lots of positive thoughts your way. Writing has been a coping strategy for me too

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  4. It's so lovely to hear that you're once again able to engage in something that you enjoy. I'm a massive fan of reggae, afrobeats, R&B, hip hop, dancehall.. the list is endless lol X
    thefashion-junkie

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    1. I love reggae too, I could listen to Reggae all day long in the summer, it makes me feel so happy and summery!

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  5. It's been one of the most hard things to cope with, not been able to listen to music, or to dance to the music. Or sing or play the bass. I love music. But since spring I've been able to listen to some music if I plan it well. And pace a lot. Best songs right now:
    On Battleship Hill - PJ Harvey
    West Coast - Lana del Rey
    My Silver lining - First Aid Kid
    Riptide - Vance Joy
    Shut Up and Sing V1.0 - Greta Svabo Bech
    Love Songs Drug Songs - X Ambassadors
    The Four Horsemen - Aphrodite's Child
    Song For Zula - Phosphorescent

    Or.... Anything with Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin, Queen, Camel, White Stripes, Pink Floyd (especially PF live in Pomeii)

    Love <3

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    1. I feel the same, I love to sing and dance and all of that hasn't been possible to do since this horrible illness came along. I'm not familiar with all of those songs so I will have to check them out! I love pink floyd too! That's what is playing on the record player in the last photo :)

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  6. I'm a huge fan of Styx! Guns and roses, deep purple, classic rock! I am not able to listen to it too much, or loudly as like yourself I struggle

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    1. My Dad is a big Styx fan too, he also loved Deep Purple so we have all of their albums on record! I can't listen to music loudly, my massive speakers are just going to waste!

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  7. Music really is happiness! If I couldn't listen to music for that long I think I would cry everyday!

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    1. It is isn't it! Haha oh believe me I did! I think I had a hysterical moment where I just cried out 'I NEED BEYONCE RIGHT NOW!'

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  8. A world without music is not a world worth living in!
    xxx Tash

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    1. I know! I honestly have so much sympathy for deaf people, it must be so tough for them, especially if they were once able to hear and then they lost their hearing, if you've been deaf your whole life I guess you don't know any different but it's still tough

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  9. oh my goodness! I can't believe you couldn't listen to music and I can't even begin to imagine the joy when you were able to listen to the stuff you love again! :-D
    (It's also funny we both posted music-related posts on the same day hehe)

    xo
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    1. The joy was unreal! I appreciate music so much more now! Ohh yeah! It's like we have a deep connection or something ;)

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  12. I'm sorry to hear you couldn't listen to music for years! I have gone months without music and it's definitely something that I missed. I'm loving Ed Sheerans new album at the moment, some of it is a little more harsh to listen to that his first one but it's not base-y which makes it kinda on my body than most of the stuff on the radio! (Hehe I sound like an 80 year old woman!)

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    1. It's just one of many problems an ME sufferer faces! Haha we are 80 year old women though! I can't do base-y, it gives me heart palpitations which is the most bizarre thing!

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  13. You have great taste in music! ;)

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  14. I like how Kate Bush is in front of a bush!

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    1. Oh yeah! That wasn't actually planned haha!

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  15. I've just stumbled across your blog and I love it! It's fab, deffo going to follow you! :D

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  16. I don't know what I would do without music, I love to sing, and play the guitar, and music is a big passion of mine! Sensory overload is a horrible illness/symptom and I feel for anyone that has it so severely that everyday things are a struggle. I'm so glad you've got some music back in your life again!

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    1. I love to sing too! That's also something I'm not really able to do anymore as I have a permanent sore throat and croaky voice! I really do too, I know some people have it a lot worse than I do/did though

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  17. NOOOOOOOOO! I have to say when I first became ill I couldn't listen to music either but not for as long as what you have experienced. I still struggle a little with loud music, but I quite happily play music daily now. I love listening to a station called triple J, it plays a variety of music ranging from indie, house, mental, hip hop, pop as well as new local music and doesn't have any adds! I really like Lana Del Ray at the mo ! Great post Hayley, I the variety of topics you blog about. :)

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    1. I still struggle, my ears are just sooo sensitive! Triple J sounds really cool, my local radio station is awful haha I'm glad you like my variety of topics! :)

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  20. I dont know wat Id do without music! I love to dance and as im disabled I know wat its like to not be able to do things u want to do because of ME! Its such a horrible illness

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    1. It restricts us from not only doing normal things, but also from doing the things we enjoy, like dancing, and listening to music, or even going to the Cinema (It's far too loud there for me!) It is such a horrible illness you're right :(

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  21. So glad you can start to listen to the music you love again, it must have really sucked not to be able to! Your taste in music is so much cooler than mine haha, I'm more of a cheesy Mcfly type of gal :P

    Alice x
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    1. Cheesey Mcfly is good! I used to like Mcfly back in the day!

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  22. You blog about such a variety of topics! This was such an interesting read, so glad music is back in your life again:)

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    1. Thank you Billy, I like variety! I'm glad you enjoyed this post

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  23. I totally agree because I always get an inspiration from music :)

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    1. I think everyone does, it's so powerful!

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  24. I can't imagine what it must have felt like to not be able to listen to music, especially as it has the ability to lift your mood - I wonder if you found other really good ways of lifting your spirit? :) Wonderful post and you look ever so beautiful in your side picture, by the way! Have a fantastic weekend, Hayley!

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    1. It really can lift your spirit and make a bad day better. When I couldn't listen to music or watch TV easily I mostly found photos and images lifted my spirit, but nothing compares to how music can make me feel!

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  25. So glad to hear you're struggling less with your ears now! There's nothing like your favourite album to cheer you up - it's so healing and powerful!
    www.LydiaRosexo.blogspot.co.uk xo

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  26. So glad you can listen to music again! At least your brain can have a little dance, even if you don't have the energy :)

    Lorna ✿ www.naturally-bee.blogspot.co.uk ✿

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  27. Indeed! Happy to see you doing better :)

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  28. Oh my gosh that must have sucked. Glad you're better now! x

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    1. It sucked SO much! I'm so glad it wasn't a permanent issue though :) xx

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  29. I'm so glad you can listen to music again, that must have absolutely sucked. x

    Josie’s Journal

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    1. They always say you don't appreciate what you have until it's gone, and it's true! I appreciate ears that are kind(ish) so much now!

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  30. My musical tastes are very eclectic, but no matter what the genre, I tend to prefer lyrical over instrumental. I had neurological Lyme Disease a while back. It caused terrible, and fortunately temporary, problems with my hearing and I was without most music for about a month. The slightest percussion felt like something had exploded inside my head. Like you, I was so grateful to be able to listen to music again.

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    1. I know exactly what you mean Mitchell because it has been like that for me too, it's the weirdest thing and something only those who have been through it can really understand, I'm so glad we're both able to listen to music again!

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  31. Angus & Julia Stone tho, ugh love them
    xMM
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    1. Me too! Their music is so beautiful

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  32. I can't listen to music much and when I do I have to be extremely selective in what I can handle which is annoying. Music was always a huge part of my life, it was somewhere to hide with in my bedroom blocking out the noises of people shouting, I played the piano up until I got M.E. and Michael used to sing to me every night he stayed over when we were 16 or over the phone if he wasn't there :,) so, I have another problem: music makes me too emotional; Michael listens to music when he's up after I've gone to bed and I wish I could do it with him, we used to sing to each other but I can barely get my voice above a whisper and past a few words. It sucks. But, I appreciate music even more than I did before and I'm looking forward to all the new songs that will signal new things in my life :)
    Hope you're awap :) xx

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  34. geez girl... so sorry to hear about your disease... just found your blog so just found about it as well.... all I can say is, hang in there... and congrats for being a warrior battling such sort of thing...I imagine it might not be easy, but for what I see here in your posts... you are a fighter... so hats off to you.. truly...
    ..about the music, hells yes led zepellin!♥... it's my favorite band ever and I don't think any other could be better than them in the entire world haha..I can't stop listening to their tunes..I don't know what I'd do without music since it is a huge part of my life.. I always quote nietzche on this one "without music, life would be a mistake"....so it does bum me to see someone that can't actually hear the music, never heard of that case before... I'm sorry for you... I don't know what I'd do... but you know what... if you truly love it... I bet you carry the tunes in your mind even when you are not listening them.. I bet you can sing the notes and tap the beats... that's the cool thing about music too... it stays with you, inside your head even when it is not being heard... hugs..and take care!
    Ivette

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  35. I don't know if I'd be able to give up music, hell everytime I have a damn headache or my ears hurt I don't stop listening to it. No wonder my mom thinks I'm going to deaf by the time I'm 30. Lol! I've got a large variety of music. Like seriously, I shouldn't be on those "mood" playlists on Spotify because I will literally go insane finding new music. I've been on a Indie kick lately. I've also jumped on the One Direction train. I still love my boy pop bands. :)

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