Happy Monday everyone! To start the week off on the right foot, I thought I'd share with you this Monday Mantra, reminding you to be the one thing everyone on the planet should be - a nice human. 

I made this little piece for my bedroom wall, which is covered in images and lovely words, to always keep me inspired and feeling positive.

I love the quote 'Throw kindness around like confetti' at the moment, and we all should do just that. Kindness and generally being nice costs nothing, it also requires far less energy! Why not take the opportunity this week to do something extra nice for someone you love, or even a total stranger. If you are stuck for ideas, why not visit this website: www.postpals.co.uk and sign up for one of their Christmas schemes and help make this Christmas magical for terminally ill children.

Whatever you do, this week, treat yourself to something nice (you can never go wrong with cake) spend time with nice people and make this week a nice week. Nice, nice nice.  

Here I am being a nice human by putting my dog's manlyhood doglyhood out there for all the world to see, and then letting him kiss me to make up for it. Sorry Barney, I hope that dog a few doors down who you want to make your girlfriend doesn't read this blog.

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Monday Mantra

Amnesia is the medical term used for memory loss, which is something I have suffered with for a few years now. I've not spoken about it on my blog in depth before as it is something extremely personal to me, but I want to raise awareness and share what it's like as a 22 year old woman to have experienced things in my life, to not remembering a single thing about them.

I first started having difficulty with my memory a few years ago. I don't remember too much about it (funnily enough) but it started with me getting confused with names, and I struggled to put names to faces. I couldn't remember parts of my life or remember things that aren't easy to forget such as the name of the school I went to. Although now I remember more things and many of those lost memories are no longer lost, memory loss is still something that is a part of my everyday life.

I've found ways to cope with it, and I can be lighthearted about it. I can blame me failing almost every question on every TV quiz show on my bad memory, although technically speaking I definitely can't as memory loss doesn't affect a person's intelligence. I'd know that one if it came up on Mastermind!

The best way to describe it would be to say that my mind is full of fog and mist. Some days it's clearer, but some days the fog and mist are stronger which makes it harder to remember things. 

As people, especially as we get older, we need help remembering things. Photographs, videos, talking about memories, even music all help us remember parts of our lives. Sometimes I look at photos and I remember very little about them. Sometimes people ask me if I remember when such and such happened and I have no recollection of anything they are telling me. If I don't write in my diary at the end of the day, the next day I can't complete it as I don't remember enough about the day before to write a truthful entry.  

If you were to look through my mind, it would probably look like the photos above. Those trees that once stood tall that have now been chopped into pieces are some of my memories, they are all jumbled up and confusing. Some may have been taken away to burn, never to be seen again, like some of my memories too.

At the beginning of this year I decided to write down every single thing that made me happy during 2014 in some way, big or small. I am going to read through them at the end of the year in the hope that the notes will help me remember more, and if I don't remember some of the things I read, I have a note of them so at least I know they happened. The one thing that scares me, is not being able to remember some of the good moments in my life, so writing everything down makes me less scared of that. I'm also hoping to start filming more parts of my life. Watching your life back on video is the next best thing to actually living it, and I don't always remember living.

If you have any questions about memory loss as a 20 something, please don't be afraid to ask!

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My life with memory loss

Sexy, erotic, a little kinky. Aaron Paul Rogers has done something I've never seen done before. He has photographed disabled ladies in an erotic way, but in an artistic, beautiful way. He sees the beauty and the passion in these ladies, and he has created some of the most stunning, enticing pieces of photography that I've seen in a long time.

If you are going to do anything today, make sure it's visiting Aaron's website to see more of his amazing work. He is my new favourite photographer and I just had to share these photos in particular with you guys. Disabled people are rarely fairly represented. They are often not seen to be human beings with human desires, human beings who are sexual beings. Aaron appreciates this. He photographs people who are real and he does it in such an innovative way.  

Aaron Paul Roger | Social links:


Instagram: riotmob

Twitter: aaronpaulrogers

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*I do not own any of the photos featured in this blog post. All photos are credit to Aaron Paul Rogers and aaronpaulrogers.com. I have permission from the owner to share*
The erotic work of // Aaron Paul Rogers

Isn't it great when the leaves turn this gorgeous shade of red? The temperature might be dropping but the roads are suddenly full of these amazing rich colours and for a short time the streets are covered in warm reds and burnt Orange's and it's beautiful. Autumn really isn't the same in Spain so I was glad to come back to the UK just in time before the leaves turn brown and the prettiness of Autumn can only be remembered by your Autumn themed Pinterest board.

The red leaves have replaced the green ones, hot teas have replaced ice cold smoothies, and warm knits and cosy jumpers have replaced denim shorts and crop tops. Normally I would be in tears by now merely thinking about the fact that there will be no more sun and dipping my toes in the sea, but this year I am deciding to (or at least going to try to) embrace the season.

I have now kitted (or should I say knitted?) out my A/W wardrobe with lots of lovely things to keep me nice and warm, and this cardigan is my new favourite thing. It is chunky, bright and colourful and it couldn't be more ideal for this time of the year, it is just so bloomin' cosy! If anyone has seen any cardigans similar to this one let me know, I want a wardrobe full of them, I literally want a technicolour wardrobe!

Have a great weekend lovely humans!

CARDIGAN // Boohoo.com
DRESS // Charity shop
BOOTS // gifted

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Autumn and the amazing technicolour cardigan


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