Life is for living

I absolutely love my life. I am incredibly lucky, and I feel incredibly lucky to be able to say that considering I live with something which at times to be perfectly honest, can be really shitty. I have a broken body. A physical illness that will never go away. I  have come a long way and made a hell of a lot of progress but of course it hasn't always been easy.

To accept my situation took time, it took tears. It took guts! I grieved for my old life for a long time before I was finally able to say: "You know what, I had this unfortunate thing happen to me but that's fine because it has taken me on a powerful journey that has taught me such valuable lessons." Lessons I now try to pass on to others. I don't generally talk about my health online as I once did, I don't ever really feel the need to, but last week it was awareness day, and I was inspired to write this post after sharing the following message on my socials...
To the illness that almost killed me, that has taken so much from me and thousands of others. The illness that left me paralysed and fighting to survive. Today combined, we are stronger than you. Today is not about you, it is about the millions of people you have stolen life from.

Looking back I now realise, regrettably, that I had to be close to death before I truly appreciated life. It wasn't until after hitting that point that I began to really live my life. It was only when my life was close to being over before I could see how precious my life was. How precious my life is. Strangely enough it was in those dark moments where life never seemed brighter. It was during those dark moments I swore to myself if I ever came out the other side, I would live my life surrounded by happiness and laughter, and I swore to myself that I would just live.

People (myself included before I became unwell) take life for granted. We think we have forever. We think we always have tomorrow but the truth is we don't know how long we have or what tomorrow may bring. We all want different things out of life, it's what makes it so interesting and it doesn't matter what you are aiming for, as long as you are aiming.

Just live. What does that even mean? It means exactly that. It means living. Not plodding on, not going through the motions, it means living. Embracing. Laughing. Loving. Life doesn't have to be perfect for it to be fulfilling. It's about making the most out of what you have, because it is all you have and we have to make the best out of the hand we have been dealt. I do not have a perfect life, but I live a happy life because I aim to smile each day, and I aim to make other people smile each day, and I try, my god do I try, to encourage others to share that same mentality because life is too bloody short not to.

I have said it countless times on my blog in the past, but having complete freedom to do whatever the hell you want with your life is such a blessing. We live in the west and we are privileged. We have a chance at life. A chance to make something of ourselves. Opportunities, potential. Don't fuck it up and one year from now, five years from now, or ten years from now look back and think you could have done more, or wish you would have done something sooner, or done something differently. 

Do it now. Do it today.
You only have one chance at life.

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