Friday, 27 March 2015

An update & choosing to be free from M.E

I feel like it has been a long time since I sat down and just spoke to you all. I wanted to write this post to let you all know what is going on in my world. I feel like I have neglected my friends I have made through blogging somewhat, people who I know check in regularly to see how I'm doing.

The truth is, I have been doing well, well-ish anyway. I have been making slow, but steady progress with my health, getting back some independence and learning who I am again. The thing is, when you spend so much time with chronic illness dominating your entire existence you kind of forget who you are at times. That made me sad because I always liked who I was. Who I am. You always tell yourself to not be defined by your illness, but it happens however much you wish it didn't.

Newer followers probably won't know what I am talking about, and that is because I haven't spoken about it too much recently and I'll get to why in a moment. I am talking about the fact I have an illness known as M.E - a complex neurological illness. An illness with no cure. I haven't been sharing much of M.E on my blog or social media, and I think subconsciously it was because doing so was making me unhappy. Unlike people who get stressed at work, or people who begrudgingly have to spend time with people whom they don't particularly like, I don't have an escape from M.E. I don't get to leave the stress behind as soon as it gets to 6pm. M.E is with me every moment of everyday. I needed a break so I took control of the one part of my life I have complete control over, my life online. I have kind of liked being able to have some space away from talking about an illness which has ruled my life and turned my life upside down for the past four years. That being said, I feel like right now I want and need to talk about M.E. 

The past few months I have been happy, happier than I've been in a long time. Being able to celebrate both big and small milestones makes me happy. Getting some of my life back makes me happy! Sometimes though it is like I am being teased. I am being tormented in seeing what my life could be like, if only my body allowed it. It is still very much good and bad days, I am still very much taking it a day at a time, but I have big hopes for the future. I still want to raise as much awareness of M.E as I can, and whilst on occasion this blog is a good way of doing that, I don't want to be an M.E blogger. I want to be a blogger who also has M.E. I want to show that real people, with real interests, and real opinions have M.E and the best way I can show that is by being real on my blog. 

I want you all to know I am OK. Overall I am doing well and I am so pleased with the progress I am making. I am no longer paralysed. I have my memory back. I can walk up the stairs now. 

But I also need you to know I am not OK. I am not OK because I have M.E. I may look and seem like a normal, healthy women at a quick glance at my blog or my Instagram account or my Twitter feed, but one of the biggest things I can do for awareness and advocacy is to remind you that I am not. We don't have to constantly talk about things for them to exist, but we do have to live and I want to live a life I am happy in. I want to feel normal even if I am not.

Thanks so much for reading. All the love,

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Tuesday, 17 March 2015


Here's the story about a little guy that lives in a blue world, and all day and all night and everything he sees is just blue like him inside and outside...
You know you're a 90's kid when everything to do with blue makes that Eiffel 65 song pop into your head. Babadeebabadi. So yeah, anyway... this happened. I now have blue hair. 

So originally the plan was to change my hair from ombre to all over brown, and this still is the plan, right after I've had fun being blue for a while! Dying your hair brown (or any darker colour) over blonde will just fade straight away, so it helps if you have a darker colour under as a base and the brown will stick to it a lot better, so I just decided I'd be blue, and I kinda love it, even if my mum called me a witch (lolz)

I used a directions dye in 'Atlantic Blue' I mixed the colour with some conditioner to create a lighter colour. You can do this if you want to create more of a pastel colour, or if you want to make the dye go further if you have long hair instead of buying two pots. I'd also recommend putting some old sheets on your bed as the dye will more than likely stain them for at least a couple of nights! You can get directions from your local hippie shop, or online retailing at around £4.00

Now I just need to master how to do the Marge Simpson high top and I'm good to go... 

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Friday, 6 March 2015

Fringe frenzy

I love me some tassel's. You have no idea how windy it was this day, I'm surprised I didn't take off with these tassel's blowing in the wind. Wearing a hat in the wind also emphasises how windy it actually is. The amount of times my hat blew off was kind of ridiculous, but I wasn't going to let the wind win, the hat completes the look!

When I got this jacket from I knew straight away that I wanted to create a boho vibe. A faux suede fringed jacket just screams out 'boho' doesn't it? It kind of reminds me of 'that' fringe jacket Kendall Jenner has been spotted wearing lately, only nowhere near the price. I'm not a millionaire like she is, sadly. What I love most about the jacket is that it's one of those ones that you can wear all year, I can see me sporting this throughout the summer evenings over denim shorts. It also makes me want to constantly hold my arms out... I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away...

High waisted jeans: H&M
Oversized black scarf: Topshop
Hat: Primark
Bag: Vintage


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Wednesday, 25 February 2015

MY YOUTUBE DEBUT // Five things I have learnt from having M.E

Last week my first solo video went up on my new channel 'A Spoonful Of She' There are references to Jackass, dogs in sunglasses, and talk about how gravy doesn't make a good shampoo... and if that doesn't lure you into watching it, I don't know what will!

A Spoonful Of She is a channel set up by myself, and four other ladies who just like me all have chronic health conditions. We wanted to create the channel together, because blogging, as well as maintaining a YouTube channel is hard enough for healthy people, let alone those who have illnesses. This way we can 'share the load' whilst supporting each other, and hopefully offering something new too. We are all really excited to get started and we would love your support so please go and subscribe!

Are you on YouTube? Leave your channel name in a comment below and I'll come and take a look :)

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Tuesday, 24 February 2015

Beauty: Vegan cosmetics ARBONNE review

It's been a while since I last did a beauty post. But have no fear, I'm back again with a review on the vegan skincare and cosmetics brand - ARBONNE. Arbonne is a 35 year old botanically based health and wellness company based on Swiss heritage, and they use plant based formulations blended with Swiss Science.

I've been really leaning towards vegan skincare lately, and all of Arbonne's products are plant based and vegan certified. They are paraban and chemical free and clinically proven in independent trials. I was really intrigued so I agreed to test the products and review them. My representative asked me what my areas of concern were, to which I replied, break outs and sensitivity. I also told her that I have combination skin, so she recommended the following products. 


I love this foundation! It gives such a brilliant coverage and has a matte finish, which I like. I only used a minimal amount so I was really impressed with how great the coverage was. I also like that is has SPF 15 in it too. I would definitely recommend this foundation to anyone looking for a vegan foundation which you are going to get good results from, you wouldn't need to apply too much as it really does go a long way!
Overall rating 9/10


Anything that combines two in one I am straight away a fan of. I'm all about saving time and energy in my skincare routine! I really liked this product, again like the foundation it's one of those products that goes a long way so you don't need to apply a lot. The scent smells fresh and clean, not too heavy or perfumed, which I really liked. It left my skin feeling really soft and smooth.
Overall rating 7/10

Again, like the cleanser + toner, this product has a fresh and clean scent. Designed for oily/combination skin. The consistency isn't too liquid based, so it is perfect for applying makeup after without looking oily or needing to wait ages after application for it to dry, so I'd definitely recommend this for everyday use. 
Overall rating 6/10


I really liked the scent of the shampoo and conditioners. They smell sweet but natural and left my hair feeling really soft and nourished. Both are suitable for coloured hair.

I did find that I needed to use quite a lot of the shampoo to cover my whole head, but other than that I did like the product and it left my hair voluminous and feeling thicker.
Overall Rating 6/10

The conditioner left my hair so soft, I preferred the conditioner to the shampoo. The next day my hair was shiny and still felt super soft at the ends.
Overall rating 7/10

This is by far my favourite product of all those I tested. I have quite dry ends as my hair is bleached, so it tends to need a bit more TLC so I always opt for serums and oils to help with that. This serum smells really sweet and a small amount the size of a coin applied on to the fingers and then rubbed together and then rubbed through the ends of m hair was more than enough. You'd definitely get a lot of use from this product, especially because too much can make your hair look and feel greasy. The serum left my hair looking and feeling healthier. I would definitely recommend this to anyone whose hair is in need of some TLC!
£22.00 | Worth it? Yes!
Overall rating 9/10

All in all, if you are a fan of vegan products I would definitely recommend Arbonne. My representative Sidionie was a huge help and recommended which products to try based on my skin type and areas of concern. Her details are:

Consultant Sidonie McMullen - ID: 441235044

For 20% off email - just say I sent you!

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Wednesday, 18 February 2015

Army Of No Country

Army Of No Country are this really cool, independent brand, and I just love my new bull skull tee from their store! What I really like about independent brands and Army Of No Country is you can find pieces that not everyone is going to own. When I came across their site I straight away fell in love and will probably end up buying a couple more of their T-shirts as I am really pleased with the quality, which for the bargain price of £20 is pretty bloody brill. All of their tee's are unisex too so for all of the men that read my blog (and there are more of you than you'd think!) this one is for you too.

I actually got given these rings recently too and was wondering what I'd wear them with as I don't own anything pink, or anything that would compliment pink until now, so all in all I'm a pretty happy Army gal right about now!

To check out more from Army Of No Country visit them at their website: and you can also follow them on Instagram: @armyofnocountry 

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